Resolutions.

I thought of giving it a more colorful name like ‘keliadoscope’ or a creative name like ‘cross-roads’ or ‘milestones’ or for that matter a cruel name like ‘stones around my neck’ but resolution are not stones to my neck, my rebellious self is too far from considering them any obligation on self. I am a free soul. I still resolve, and decided to call them resolutions. The list is provided herewith, not necessarily in this sequence.

  

1)      I will keep on mourning the perennial lack of romance or anything like that, in my version of living.

2)      I will perpetually wonder at the numbers and figures that are strewn ubiquitously on the path of life that is stretched ahead of me.

3)      I will unconditionally love anything which is even remotely similar to homo-sapians and most of them will keep on proving that they’re monkeys and apes.

4)      I will lament my singledom and crouched behind the iron walls of my fortress where no warrior dare enter, I will accept, acknowledge and cherish it.

5)      I will keep nurturing polar extremes ideas, notions, dogmas, beliefs, which in George Orwell’s word are totally capable to cancel out each other and thrive on them.

6)      I will schedule, re-schedule, Plan and re-plan about planning and scheduling.

7)      I’ll procrastinate.

8)      I will have the bouts of self-detest, with me hating anything and everything about myself, always followed by me kissing the mirrors – farewell narcissus!

9)      I will scribble endless love notes about a non-existent alien and rants and songs for Prince Eric and wisdom for blinds, deaf, dead – they are, to my wisdom, after all.

10)  I will play the little soft fairy and  be sad about the world.

11)  I will make sure the wonder of my eyes, remain.

12)  I will try to learn to learn to hate and to say no.

13)  I will keep the windows of my room ajar. Peter pan might come.

14)  I will try to respect myself and stop abusing it.

15)  I will give up trying to be like them. I and they are two parallel lines, the meeting of which is impossible, it can only be an optical un-real illusion.

16)  I will munch to heart’s content

17)  I will acknowledge the fact that I am a total social retard, I lack the desire to talk to anyone new.

18)  Will try to learn to move on.

19)  I will delve into my appetite to break away and dream.

20)  I will pray if Allah helps me find refuge in His mercy and blessing, My only hope.

21)  I will seek for a shifu to help save me from being too much of myself. Its a disaster.

22)  I will look out for people playing games in name of religion and pray if iw ont be befooled by them.

 

 Most importantly I will try to improve, in all aspects, respects, angles, sides etc studies, spiritual self, Iman, routine and personality. I dono the what and the how though!

Cross posted on Writer’s Lounge!

16 thoughts on “Resolutions.

  1. hi asbah!!

    i loved the way u creatively write each line with great descriptions and metaphors

    nice penned up resolutions..
    join the club ont hat procastination and munching to heart’s content part 😛

  2. on a re-read of my own post, i realize that i lack the consistency and coherence of thought.
    and also discovered couple of mistakes:

    1) “my rebellious self is too far from considering them any obligation on self”

    ‘self’ is used twice here and I feel its repetitive.

    2) I still resolve, and decided to call them resolutions.

    The comma was not required here.

    3) I will keep nurturing polar extremes ideas, notions, dogmas, beliefs, which in George Orwell’s word are totally capable to cancel out each other and thrive on them.

    this better be:

    I will keep nurturing THE polar-extreme ideas, notions, dogmas, beliefs, which, in George Orwell’s wordS, are totally capable to cancel out each other, and WILL thrive on them.

    4) I will make sure the wonder of my eyes, remain.

    the comma, again, was un-required for the flow.

    and most importantly, i ended it very abruptly. I could have organized the ending in a more nicer way. Could have.

    Oh biya, thankyou … Much Gratis 🙂

  3. Loved the resolutions..!!But dude..are these for like a life time or a single year ? 😛

    Wont u need to carry a print out of all of them to remind you what u ve decided for the year?

    Ok on a serious note..!!Loved the resolutions..wish i had the grit to follow even one of mine over the years..!!Never the less have lived to tell the tale of my non resoluting years..!!:P

    Cheers and best of luck.!!

  4. beautifully portrayed thoughts…hopefylly u can keep all promises made to urself…even if u can’t atleast do try
    Aameen!!!

  5. thank you Rohan, initially for an year, once i get going i will stretch it for all my life 😛

    CN, Amir, Thankyuo – much gratis 🙂

  6. well written asbii..beutifully put…omg..itni saari resolutions!!
    for a lifetime kya? 😛
    i keep 1 for a yr n still dnt follow! 😀
    so none dis yr!

    oh..i now get d logic of so many resolutions…den even if u keep one…u’l feel happy..hai na? 😛

  7. *ahem* Good you spotted those before I could mention… 😉

    Anyway coming to the “resolutions”, ah – humanity! We so love being imperfect. 🙂

    Peace.

  8. i have read it at the lounge.. and the resolutions are an evidence of your originality and honesty at its best..

    – blogrolled you asbah.. i will be around.. 🙂

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